Me no blog.

Im exhausted.

It’s been over a week of part time single parenting. Last Wednesday it was a late night drinking event, so called “work”.

Then he left Friday morning and returned Sunday morning(exhausted from a long weekend of more “work” aka drinking). On Tuesday he left again, this time for actually genuine getting his hands dirty work. He’s taking the red eye home and will arrive Friday morning, but he will be “tired” and need to nap.

So far I have slept 2 hours since Tuesday. No kidding, and not in a row. They hate it when he travels and protest all night long, until they pass out, then the other wakes up to take over protesting.

I Know I could easily handle one baby, because they both do eventually sleep, but, if they don’t sleep at the same time… Then I don’t sleep.
I’m now waiting it out for nap time, gotta make sure I get it right today, yesterday, they didn’t nap at the same time.

Somebody pass the coffee.


Toronto Women’s 10K

I did it, registered for the Toronto Women’s 10K on August 27th.

Now, I need a plan.

Week 1 & 2 – M- Weights, T- 5k, W – Swim, T-5K, F- Weights, S-7K , Sun – hot yoga.

Week 3 & 4 – M – Weights, T-5K, W- swim, T-5k, F-rest, S- 8k, Sun – hot yoga

Week 5,  M – Weights, T-5k, W-swim, T-6k, F-rest, S-9k, Sun – Hot yoga

Week 6, M- Weights, T-5K, W-swim, T-7k, F- rest, S-10K, Sun – hot yoga

Week 7, M – weights, T-5k, W-swim, T-8k, F-rest, S – 11k, Sun – hot yoga

Week 8, M – weights, T – 5k, W – swim, T- 8k, F- rest, S-11k, Sun hot yoga


I start the plan on Monday!

One of these days, one of these guys is going to kill me.

These words still haunt.

It was the summer that I want entering my fifth year of University. 2001.

I had a fantastic job, working outside in nature, with kids. We were an eclectic group of people, artists, engineers, biologists. We were friends.

“One of these days, one of these guys is going to kill me”.

I can still see her face, she was beautiful, in that irish sorta way. Young, thin, smart, and witty. She had everything going for her.

We were at lunch, one of those rare lunches where we all had a moment to sit down together.

She was telling a story, a story that was funny, and had something to do with her boyfriend and buying apple pies from McDonald’s. She loved McDonald’s Apple pies.

I want to remember the details but I can’t, it’s all gone, with one sentence remaining.

“One of these days, one of these guys is going to kill me”.

I think we all laughed, she was laughing. I didn’t see it.

I didn’t see the pain in her eyes, I didn’t see that she meant it, I didn’t see that she was scared.

That was July.

On a cold Novemeber day I was home studying, my room mate and best friend was working the weekend shift.

She called and she couldn’t stop crying.

Our friend was dead.

She had a fight with her boyfriend.

He was drunk.

So was she.

She went home.

So did he.

But he returned with his Dad’s shot gun.

He killed her, and killed herself.

I wish I could go back in time.

I wish I saw her pain.

I wish…

Toronto Women’s Half Marathon and 5K

Yesterday I got up early, really early, 5am. Really, I just didn’t sleep on Saturday night.

But it was all for a good cause, I spent yesterday morning volunteering at the Toronto Women’s Half Marathon, sorry no pics, I forgot my camera!

It was absolutely inspirational to see a sea of women running, and has really got me excited about training for August’s 10K ! I’m also seriously considering training for next years Toronto Women’s Half Marathon, but, I want to get to 10K first.

Today I have my follow-up appointment with the surgeon dude that removed my appendix, hopefully he will clear me to return to running and hot yoga (because I started last week anyway!).

Iced Coffee Protein Shake

I LOVE coffee. I mean love, love, love coffee.

My very first cup of coffee was way back in 1993, I was 15, and my best friend and we just finished watching The Hard Way for the umpteenth time (I wonder why we loved that movie so much, need to see if it’s on Netflix).

I did give coffee up for several years, all the mixed opinions on how damaging coffee is to your fertility resulted in me not drinking coffee (or severely reduced my consumption) from 2007-2009. After that last egg retrieval I got a Veneti Pumpkin Latte and it tasted soo soo good.

Now, coffee is essential to my existence.

This morning, I discovered a whole new amazing way to consume my beloved beverage.

In a protein Shake.

Nadine’s Tired Coffee Protein Shake

  • Cold Coffee
  • Milk (I used 1/2 Cup of skim milk)
  • 1 Cup of frozen Strawberries, chopped
  • Protein (I used PC Chocolate Soy protein)

Place in blender, blend and enjoy.

(Can it really be called a recipe?). Want to read another great Coffee recipe? Check out Averie’s post about iced coffee.

Big Weekend plans? I’m volunteering this Sunday at the Toronto Women’s Half Marathon

WIA Wednesday

It’s What I ate/ wednesday, or at least yesterday was, and as my day started at 3am and didn’t end until 1030, I didn’t draft this post yesterday. Taking photos of everything you eat is a lot of work!

7am -Coffee x3

8am – Tuna on Stonemill Sprouted grain toast

10:00am Carmel Light Frappicino (so yummy, but so expensive!)

Walk around Bloor West and High Park.

1230pm – Lunch,  Brown Rice, chickpeas, Veggies, Salsa, Old chedder and lettuce.

2pm – Iced Coffee with 1% milk and 1 tsp of Wild Honey

3330pm – Nutella on Stonemill Sprouted Grain Toast                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                               

Reading  while they nap

7 pm KERF’s Salmon Cakes (with modifications, added hot mustard, and sub corn flake crumbs for oat bran) & Salad

9Pm Pepsi Max

Personality and careers…

I completed a BSc in Psychology, what now seems many moons ago (I graduated 9 years ago). And this is one of those many moments that I wish I could speak with that younger me.

Pay. Attention. Nadine.

One of the many courses I did was a course in Personality, we did all sorts of personality tests, and the ending result was a complete analysis of who I am.



As I have said over and over again, I’m trying to figure out my new career direction. Recently I happened across Carl Jung’s personality test.

I am an


And as I read the description, I hear myself saying “yes, that’s me!”.

Here is a brief synopsis:

More so than any other personality type, INTJs are brilliant when it comes to grasping complex theories and applying them to problems to come up with long-term strategies.Since this type of “strategizing” is the central focus and drive of the INTJ, there is a happy match between desire and ability in this type.Accordingly, the INTJ is happiest and most effective in careers which allow this type of processing, and which promote an environment in which the INTJ is given a lot of autonomy over their daily lives.

No Wonder I have been miserable in so many of my jobs. Mundane, repetitive, tedious, boring un-challenging pink ghetto (AKA secretarial work!).

Possible Career Paths for the INTJ:

  • Scientists
  • Engineers
  • Professors and Teachers
  • Medical Doctors / Dentists
  • Corporate Strategists and Organization Builders
  • Business Administrators / Managers
  • Military Leaders
  • Lawyers / Attorneys
  • Judges
  • Computer Programmers, Systems Analysts and Computer Specialists

Hmm. It gives me some place to start. I know that I will be returning to University, and I’m fine with that(as much as I hate more debt, I need  a career that I love).

Want to find out what you should do with your life, take this test.

What I’m looking forward to…

It’s that time of year again, early closing Fridays! As of this Friday, Mr. will be working half day Fridays, his company knows how to reward all those long winter days, travelling and preparing for the peak season, by giving their employees half days on every friday from the May 24th holiday weekend until Labour Day weekend. They are a lot like Xmas elves, they work hard all winter long preparing for a hot summer, and when summer hits they are ready and it’s time to relax and enjoy the product.

This weekend I’m looking forward to spending time enjoying these two little people:

And now that our tree stump is removed I plan on Working on planting a new garden out here:


New Garden Space:

So excited for some SUN this weekend!

What do you plan on doing this Victoria Day Weekend?

American readers: Please accept my apologies that you don’t get to experience the glory of the Canadian May 2-4.

More work contemplations

I think a lot about what I want my next job to be. My next step in life. I am loving being a SAHM (no I don’t just watch Opera all day and eat bonbons), but, I also think it’s important for children to grow up seeing their mom as an independent person with a life outside of the house (for them, and for me).

I am a realist. I know they are here in our lives for a short time, When they turn 18 they may just leave and move away, and our lives can not be just living for them.

I searched for a picture of me when I worked for the Celebrity diva. I worked for her for 6.5 long months and there are only a few pictures of a drive we took back east for Xmas. That’s all.

Here I am only 4 weeks into the job, and I had already received 4 crazy phone calls that day (on my personal cell phone) about a box of wine that was supposed to be delivered that day to her friend in Europe (that she only remembered to have me order on Xmas eve).

And one and the husband relaxing with the in-laws puppy (after the box of wine crisis was averted):

I want to ride my bicycle.

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